Most people exist, but few are truly awake. Discover how to break free from mechanical living.
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Are You Actually Awake?

Or Just Running on Autopilot?

8 min readFeb 11, 2025

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Life is Real Only Then, When ‘I AM’: A Radical Guide to Conscious Living

Morning Distractions: The Struggle to Get Out of the House and to Work

Mornings often feel like a battle against exhaustion, endless distractions, and the grip of digital addiction.

  • First challenge? Waking up after too little sleep, thanks to late-night scrolling, gaming, or binge-watching Netflix.
  • Before you even step out of bed, your phone is already in your hand — notifications, emails, and group chats flooding your mind.
  • Thirty minutes slip by in a haze of mindless consumption.
  • Your sleep might have been poor because your room is cluttered with technology: laptops, flat screens, phones, gaming consoles, and humming electronics.
  • Your morning routine? Rushed and chaotic — skipping breakfast, grabbing overpriced coffee, and mindlessly scrolling through TikTok while deciding what to wear.

“Without self-awareness, a man is merely a machine.”

And then, the mental rollercoaster begins. Anxiety, OCD, ADHD, depression, PTSD — perhaps medication started in childhood. As you grew older, stimulants kept you awake, sedatives helped you sleep, and antidepressants numbed the edges.

  • Your rush to leave the house is filled with time-wasting hurdles: lost keys, last-minute emails, and checking notifications.
  • The commute becomes another trap — doomscrolling, answering Slack messages, or replying to emails before even reaching work.
  • Even if you work from home, instead of saving time, you’re already exhausted from social media and notifications before the day even begins.

By evening, you crave more distractions — drinks with friends, a mindless Tinder hookup, scrolling endlessly on your phone. You numb yourself with takeout, Netflix, or gaming, only to fall asleep and repeat the same cycle tomorrow.

In Her Head, All at Once. Lost in the endless scroll, her mind races between fleeting TikTok trends and unanswered texts. FOMO and overthinking fuel her anxiety, while the fear of missing out keeps her awake past midnight. Coffee and curated Instagram posts define her mornings, while quiet moments are drowned out by playlists and podcasts. Addicted to connection yet disconnected from herself, she wonders: What does it mean to truly live? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

The Trap of Morning Distractions

Mornings are a battle against exhaustion, distractions, and digital addiction.

  • The first challenge? Waking up after too little sleep, thanks to late-night scrolling, gaming, or Netflix.
  • Before you step out of bed, notifications, emails, and social media flood your mind — stealing the first 30 minutes of your day.

Maybe you didn’t sleep well because your room is cluttered with electronic equipment — laptops, screens, tangled wires. Your brain never fully rests, yet you wonder why you wake up exhausted.

  • Your morning routine is chaotic — skipping breakfast, stressing over outfits, scrolling TikTok while getting ready.
  • In the background? Podcasts, news updates, or YouTube videos add even more mental clutter.

And then, let’s talk about the mental rollercoaster that follows you everywhere.

  • Anxiety, OCD, ADHD, depression, PTSD, BPD — pick your three-letter disorder.
  • You’ve been medicated since childhood — maybe Ritalin in school, stimulants in college, antidepressants later.
  • The cycle began: stimulants to focus, sedatives to sleep, SSRIs to numb the edges.

The rush to leave the house is filled with small, time-consuming hurdles — lost keys, last-minute emails, checking notifications again. Then, another distraction minefield: the commute.

Whether driving or taking public transport, you spend the trip doomscrolling, replying to work messages, or answering emails before work even begins.

Or maybe you work from home — but instead of gaining time, you wake up exhausted, immediately sucked into emails, texts, and social media.

  • The workday hasn’t even started, and you’re already mentally drained.

And yet, after a day of notifications, work, and relentless digital noise, you still search for more distractions.

Drinks with friends? A Tinder hookup? Scrolling endlessly?

Maybe you order takeout, get high, play Skyrim or Grand Theft Auto, then fall asleep — only to do it all over again tomorrow.

This is modern life.

📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

The Core Question: Are You Truly Awake?

The philosopher G.I. Gurdjieff spent his life trying to wake people from “mechanical existence.” Most people live in a dreamlike state, ruled by habits, distractions, and external influences.

“Man is asleep, and his task is to awaken.” — Gurdjieff

His teachings aren’t about quick fixes or five-minute hacks — they’re about serious, transformative work.

Breaking the Cycle: How to Wake Up

1. Self-Remembering

  • Stop identifying with thoughts and emotions.
  • Instead of being lost in your mind, observe yourself.

2. The “I AM” Exercise

  • Sit in a quiet space.
  • Say “I AM” aloud while focusing on your solar plexus.
  • Notice the reverberation in your body.

3. Dividing Attention

  • During any activity — eating, working, walking — split your Attention between your external world and inner awareness.
  • Example: While reading this, sense your body at the same time.

4. Intentional Suffering

  • Choose discomfort deliberately — fasting, cold showers, enduring criticism without reacting.
  • The goal? Break free from comfort addiction and build resilience.

“To awaken, one must struggle. There is no other way.” — Gurdjieff

20: Always connected, yet feeling more disconnected than ever. The endless scroll of TikTok, Instagram, and Twitter dictates emotions, while fleeting trends and digital noise drown out self-awareness. In the pursuit of validation, solitude feels unbearable. But in the silence — who are you, really? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

Ignorance Is Bliss: A Lesson from The Matrix

In The Matrix, Cypher chooses illusion over truth — he knows the steak isn’t real, but he prefers the comfort of the dream.

This mirrors our daily choices:

  • Doomscrolling instead of self-reflection.
  • Binge-watching instead of confronting discomfort.
  • Choosing distractions over real change.

Which will you choose? Awakening or remaining asleep?

30: Success looks good on paper, but why does it feel so empty? The morning rush, the endless grind, the curated routines — green juice, power dressing, productivity hacks — all a desperate attempt to stay ahead. Yet, in the rare moments of stillness, the real question lingers: Is this the life you truly wanted, or just the one you were told to chase? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

Final Thought: The Choice is Yours

This is your life. You can keep sleepwalking through it, numbed by distractions, or you can wake up and start truly living.

Gurdjieff warned: “If you do not struggle to awaken, you will die like a dog — without ever truly having lived.” — Gurdjieff

🔥 Your choice: Wake up or stay asleep.

“If I AM, Only then I CAN. If I CAN, Only then do I deserve and have the objective right to WISH.” — G.I. Gurdjieff

40: Success, stability, and routine — yet the emptiness lingers. Life feels like an endless loop of responsibilities, financial planning, and fleeting nostalgia. The search for meaning grows louder, but without the titles and obligations, who remains? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.
50: The mirror reflects more than wrinkles — it reveals time slipping away. Priorities shift from ambition to well-being, from trends to comfort. The noise of social media fades, replaced by the quiet hum of jazz and reflection. Without the constant distractions, is this peace — or is it fear? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.
60–80: With the rush of life behind us, mornings bring gratitude instead of urgency. The world grows quieter — no more trends to chase, just memories to revisit. In the stillness, reflection replaces distraction. Was it a life well-lived, or just time passing by? 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.
90: A life once filled with noise now fades into quiet reflection. The ticking clock replaces alarms, soft meals replace indulgence, and memories outnumber visitors. In the stillness of the final years, one question lingers — was it all enough?” 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

👉 Gurdjieff warned: “If you do not struggle to awaken, you will die like a dog — without ever truly having lived.” — Gurdjieff

If you do not struggle to awaken, you will die like a dog — without ever truly having lived. 📸 Photo Credit: Freepik.

Sources & References: 1. Primary Sources — The foundation of this article is deeply rooted in the teachings of G.I. Gurdjieff, particularly his books Life is Real Only Then, When ‘I AM’, Beelzebub’s Tales to His Grandson, and Meetings with Remarkable Men. Additionally, P.D. Ouspensky’s In Search of the Miraculous provides a structured breakdown of Gurdjieff’s Fourth Way teachings, while Maurice Nicoll’s Psychological Commentaries on the Teaching of Gurdjieff and Ouspensky offers a psychological perspective on his philosophy. 2. Secondary Sources — Gurdjieff’s ideas parallel those of Carl Jung, particularly in Modern Man in Search of a Soul and The Undiscovered Self, where Jung discusses the unconscious mind, individuation, and the false self, aligning with Gurdjieff’s concept of waking sleep. Aldous Huxley’s Brave New World and George Orwell’s 1984 critique societal conditioning and control, themes central to Gurdjieff’s work. René Descartes’ Meditations on First Philosophy introduces self-inquiry, mirroring Gurdjieff’s call to question reality. The 1999 film The Matrix serves as a modern allegory for Gurdjieff’s philosophy, portraying the struggle to awaken from illusion. Similarly, T.S. Eliot’s poem The Hollow Men poetically reflects spiritual emptiness and unconscious existence. 3. Psychological & Neuroscientific Insights on Attention and Awareness — Modern psychology and neuroscience validate many of Gurdjieff’s teachings. Daniel Kahneman’s Thinking, Fast and Slow explains the dual-processing system of the brain, supporting Gurdjieff’s idea of divided attention. The Huberman Lab Podcast by Andrew Huberman provides insights into the neuroscience of focus and attention, aligning with self-remembering techniques. Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience explores deep attention states, paralleling Gurdjieff’s self-awareness exercises. 4. Cultural & Philosophical Influences on Gurdjieff’s Teachings — Gurdjieff’s ideas were shaped by various antient esoteric traditions. The Sufi teachings of the Mevlevi Order (Whirling Dervishes) influenced his movement exercises and sacred dances. Tibetan Buddhism, particularly Dzogchen teachings, shares parallels with self-observation. Hindu Advaita Vedanta, exemplified by Ramana Maharshi’s Who Am I?, echoes Gurdjieff’s method of self-inquiry. Taoism, through Laozi’s Tao Te Ching, introduces the principle of effortless action (Wu Wei), which contrasts yet complements aspects of Gurdjieff’s self-remembering. 5. Scientific & Psychological Research on Digital Overload & Distraction — This article examines how modern distractions fuel waking sleep. Cal Newport’s Digital Minimalism explores the impact of digital addiction on attention, reinforcing Gurdjieff’s warning about external influences. Tristan Harris’ documentary The Social Dilemma reveals how technology manipulates human behavior, mirroring concerns about unconscious living. Nicholas Carr’s The Shallows: What the Internet is Doing to Our Brains discusses how digital consumption rewires neural pathways, echoing Gurdjieff’s ideas on mental fragmentation. Jean Twenge’s iGen highlights rising anxiety and depression in the digital age, correlating with waking sleep and the need for self-remembering. 6. Key Gurdjieff Quotes Referenced — Several of Gurdjieff’s most striking quotes form the backbone of this discussion: “If you do not struggle to awaken, you will die like a dog.” (a stark warning about mechanical existence), “Man is asleep, and his task is to awaken.” (his central thesis), “If I AM, only then I CAN. If I CAN, only then do I deserve to WISH.” (a guiding principle of conscious effort), “The greatest untapped energy is the force of conscious effort.” (emphasizing the importance of struggle in personal transformation), and “You do not realize your own slavery until you attempt to break free.” (highlighting the invisible chains of conditioned existence). 7. Conclusion — The article integrates Gurdjieff’s philosophy with Jungian psychology, neuroscience, critiques of digital distraction, and existentialist thought. These sources provide a framework for understanding waking sleep, self-awareness, and the struggle to attain true consciousness. Whether viewed through the lens of ancient wisdom or modern science, the message remains the same: 🔥 Wake up, or stay asleep — the choice is yours.

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Vazken Kalayjian
Vazken Kalayjian

Written by Vazken Kalayjian

Visionary entrepreneur, futurist, and meditation teacher exploring creativity, tech, & spirituality. Uncovering truths, driving innovation. To awaken humanity!

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